"Buck up Lil' Cub"

Greta Christina - Puritan Pundits Should Chill Out -- Here Are 5 Reasons I'm Happy I've Had Lots of Casual Sex

"Some people go into casual sex for good, healthy reasons, and some people do it for bad, unhealthy reasons, and many people do it for a combination of the two. And some people have good outcomes from it, and some have crummy outcomes, and some have outcomes that are a mixed bag. You know. Just like people go into marriage and committed relationships for good reasons and bad reasons and combinations of the two… with good, and bad, and mixed results."

A New Adventure

And so it goes sometimes, one day it's great, and the next, well it's not.
The next chapter begins, and I for one am (dare I say) excited?

Certainly I could be naive to think that I haven't become extremely co-dependent, but at least I can go into the new year with just that, independence. Truthfully, if I were to admit it to myself, I fear that I will simply become more cold-hearted.  My way of warming up to new people like a snail simply won't work this time, and I don't really want to invest in yet another relationship.

I am set on my ways, and now that a month short of a year goes by, I am kinda not feeling the hook-ups with the cute guys at the party nor wanting to actually put in any effort. I just want the guy that holds me tight, that doesn't care if I shaved my legs that day, and can have a good time staying in or going out on a crazy adventure.

I say good-bye to what was love, but I know it was right. It just sucks now that I'm still here in Santa Cruz twiddling my thumbs, and no sex.

"Teaching Good Sex" Sex Ed. in Public Schools

I would highly suggest to read the whole article from New York Times, but to highlight some; the introduction of pleasure to the peril of sex education: 


Pubic Hair: 
“Grass,” a girl, a cheerleader, offered.

“If there’s grass on the field, play ball, right, right,” Vernacchio (the teacher) agreed, “which is interesting in this rather hair-phobic society where a lot of people are shaving their pubic hair — ”
“You know there’s grass, and then it got mowed, a landing strip,” one boy deadpanned, instigating a round of laughter. 

First Base - Implications of sex being a game:

Vernacchio explains that sex as baseball implies that it’s a game; that one party is the aggressor (almost always the boy), while the other is defending (herself); that there is a strict order of play, and you can’t stop until you finish. “If you’re playing baseball,” he continues to note, “you can’t just say, ‘I’m really happy at second base.’ ”

Sex education in the US:

“There is abstinence-only sex education, and there’s abstinence-based sex ed,” said Leslie Kantor, vice president of education for Planned Parenthood Federation of America. “There’s almost nothing else left in public schools.”

Across the country, the approach ranges from abstinence until marriage is the only acceptable choice, contraceptives don’t work and premarital sex is physically and emotionally harmful, to abstinence is usually best, but if you must have sex, here are some ways to protect yourself from pregnancy and disease. The latter has been called “disaster prevention” education by sex educators who wish they could teach more; a dramatic example of the former comes in a video called “No Second Chances,” which has been used in abstinence-only courses. In it, a student asks a school nurse, “What if I want to have sex before I get married?” To which the nurse replies, “Well, I guess you’ll just have to be prepared to die.”

It wasn’t until the 1960s and 1970s that the pill, feminism and generational rebellion smashed the cultural consensus that sex should be confined to marriage.

The very definition of PROUD. This is PRIDE. 

I am sad I could not be there this year.

Romance..not so much:

This morning I woke up in the good kind of way, and I wanted to talk.
Yikes that even sounds scary to me now as I type it..

I had to ask a question, because of course, I can't be happy..that would be too great. Now three days before I leave-it is awkward between us, woot woot. It has never once been weird between us, we have never had a fight and now we aren't talking because neither of us know what to say. I kissed him and said bye, because I needed to study..slash this is me studying.

Of course, this would be the case. The worst part is that for the first time, I am choosing to communicate, I am choosing to actually talk, even though walking away is oh so much easier. I wonder if this is genuine, or if this is just me trying to find a reason to end it now. It's funny how we never grow up- I've done the exact same thing, in fact the last time that I went on Amigos four years ago-I broke up with my boyfriend of a year, my best friend went abroad for the year. I came back some months later, and I was solo, I made new friends, drenched myself in academics and got a lil' bit tougher..Similarities..?

I have so many hormones rushing through my body right now..
I was a babbling brook yesterday, and it was not fun.

Stressed.

I do not know what to do. I leave in now less than ten days.

And guess what, AMIGOS just changed my flight to the day prior!
Woot, do you know what this means?

Me neither, I do not know how I am going to do this.
To do:

1. Pack for Honduras
2. Laundry and Amigos appropriate clothing
3. Pain the house and stucco the holes that we made.
4. Clean, clean, clean.
5. Have quality time with those I care about, unlikely : (
6. Prep for my research this summer
7. PRINT MATERIALS
8. Put everything into storage!!
9. Eat my food that I still have..in the fridge.
10. Find a storage unit.
11. End of quarter evals. for Steering
12. Find a replacement
13. Start and finish my finals.
14. Go camping with my boo
15. Get anti-malarials!
16. Get a field journal for the summer
17. Get the last things from home
18. Not be stressed?

An IUD = Hundreds of cramps..just wanted to put that one out there.

How exciting, now you can catch up on the news as I procrastinate..well what I find interesting anyways:

    Next up, a gender and sex issue, yikes it get even better. A sweet lil' Canadian couple choses to keep their baby's sex a secret, allowing for the lil' kid to grow up and choose for them-self the 'gendered identity.'

    Way to go Canadian couple, you rock my socks, but not as much as you rocked each-other's when you got knocked up and got pregos. None the less, way to be parents and support your child for their well-being.

   Canadian padres said to reporters that withholding the baby's sex is a 'tribute to freedom'. Oh, y'all so sweet, shucks ;) Have a great life lil' kiddo that will now be scarred because your parents put you on tabloids at such a fricken young age. No worries though, because they DID NOT PUT YOUR SEX!

    But really, I know this sounds very negative, but I think you guys are great.

Ms Witterick, 38, and Mr Stocker, 39, have also been criticised for the manner in which they are raising their two sons Jazz, five, and Kio, two. The boys are encouraged to choose their own clothing and hairstyles - even if that means wearing girls' clothes - and to challenge gender norms. Jazz wears his hair in long braids, and the boys are "almost exclusively assumed to be girls," Mr Stocker told the Toronto Star

What does virginity mean to a queer person, who may never have vaginal intercourse in her/his/hir life? What of a lesbian who chooses to never engage in any sort of penetrative sex act her entire life, does she remain some sort of super, extra virgin? If a straight man receives a blowjob, he will in all likelihood still consider himself a virgin, but a gay man receiving a blowjob may have a more complicated understanding of what it means for his sex life. In many ways, our conception of “virginity” erases or invalidates queer sex.*