Agony

agony |ˈagənē|noun ( pl. -nies)extreme physical or mental suffering : he crashed to the ground in agony.• [with adj. ] the final stages of a difficult or painful death : his last agony | the death agony.ORIGIN late Middle English (originally denoting mental anguish alone): via Old French and late Latin from Greek agōnia, from agōn‘contest.’ The sense of physical suffering dates from the early 17th cent.
Agony, not knowing if your loved one is alive or dead. Agony, living with the slightest hope that they are.
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